I don't know if this will help or not.
My Blog is Called Life After Rick.
I feel I need to share some of my thoughts, having been widowed suddenly at age 57.
My husband Rick Scott, died at age 67, of a heart attack, on November 11, 2010.
Remembrance Day.
How appropriate for a History Teacher.
More about him and his life another time.
I am angry he died.
I am angry he did not take care of himself.
I am angry that now I cannot get motivated to do what I want to do.
Before he died, I used him as an excuse for things not getting done.
Now, I don't have him as an excuse, do I?
I should get my house in order.
I should do a lot of things.
I should grieve more, too.
I am disappointed in myself for not being more active, more healthy, more busy.
I need help to get motivated.
What should I do?
There really is nothing stopping me now.
I should be able to do what I want, and what I should do.
What is stopping me? What am I afraid of?
